Statement of Intent

Looking at this site, if I didn’t know me, I would think a few things.

• I thought he was a sitarist, what is all this stuff?

  • Sitar is my spine and I have loved it for over fifty years. But for various I decided not to pursue a typical concert career at whatever level I could muster, in 1978. I am, in any case, by nature a vocational artist and aspirant in the old sense, not a careerist professional.

• Why is there such a long period of relative inactivity?

  • I developed hyperacusis, and thought for a time that I may not be able to continue with music at all. I started painting during that time, and discovered that I loved it! And painted until my arm wouldn’t move. Then the hyperacusis got a bit better.

• Why has he never had a site before?

  • I have all my life found advertising and selling, and then branding and social media selling methods distasteful. And I have some sort of acronym, I am not quite sure what it is. I have had it since I was four or so. I remember. I will call it an urge to privacy.

  • Why has he pursued so many things, and why is he putting them here? I have things that, well, I just want to share them. I have in a sense been planning a party for decades. Now that I am seventy-two, I figure I better have the party now, even if no one comes. And as I have said elsewhere, I think of this site as a kind of Interior Garden. In this way, it is a place. I like it here and want to invite you over. Is this fellow a bit bonkers? Well now we are getting at it! I actually have a state of being I call “Crazy Space.” It is a creative place. I have spent time there. So he has written all this stuff. Where is it? On what label? Who has performed it? Who has read it? There is little to show for it, apparently. I had the calamity of hyperacusis. And another kind of calamity occurred which disrupted plans. I got discouraged. The rise of toxic politics threw me off my horse. And I have my faults. Finally I do not think it is a good time for the arts and culture. The arts are everywhere, it seems. But most of it is not involved with the canon of culture of the past. That is crucial to my interest. Is there a purpose behind all this? There was an overarching goal that began to form in my mind at the age of fifteen. This had to do with harmony of disparate elements, and a kind of Theology of the Imagination. I have been planning a sort of coming out for a long time. I wish I had done better. But here I is.

You have found the bottle with a note in it that I have thrown out in the ocean of the internet.

Welcome!

I will be writing about the whys and wherefores of these things more at length elsewhere on the site.

I also hope to raise money for projects, such as Canticle. And, i do want to hopefully generate income for myelf, so that I can keep body, soul, and my teeth in the same place for a little while longer!